I'm officially in the emotional rollercoaster phase of this excursion. Most days are chaotic, occasional days are peaceful, and I cope how I can by trying to make friends up here. One day I'm perfectly fine, the next I'm breaking down, repeat. I think I'm emotionally trending downward, because working on my projects are a powerful coping tool and I'm losing the energy needed to work on them.
I'm kind of angry with myself. I feel like a stronger person could handle all this and keep creating. Heck, I was creatively shut down for half of 2022, but the circumstances were far worse than this. The only thing they have in common is that they make me feel like my life has been put on pause by an outside force.
I'm kind of angry with myself. I feel like a stronger person could handle all this and keep creating. Heck, I was creatively shut down for half of 2022, but the circumstances were far worse than this. The only thing they have in common is that they make me feel like my life has been put on pause by an outside force.
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