These are not the best ideas

My new job is understaffed and overworked, and as a result they're working me to death. I'm trying to cope, and I'd say I'm adapting okay (see previous post), but I have less time to myself than ever before.

In other words, personal projects are suffering more than ever. Kontext especially.

Today was my first day off. (I had 4th of July weekend off, but I was very sick for the duration.) I've spent most of today trying to get page 3-91 done, but it's evening now and I'm nowhere near. I have no idea when I'll scrape enough time together to get it finished.

I'm trying very hard to stay calm about it. But the fact is, if nothing changes, I'll never be able to update regularly anymore. After months and months of struggling to get a few pages out a month, for it to only get worse now that I've finally started work? I can't stand it.

Meanwhile, I'm watching helplessly while everyone else is still sharing new art and fiction every day. I don't even have time to read any of it, let alone share my own stuff.

I've suspended Patreon for two months, and it's looking like a third will be paused too. I've already had people asking me where the next page is, and I don't have an answer.

I should have been on chapter 4 for a while now, and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

I want to scream.

So... the other job my friend had lined up? It was approved by his finance and legal teams. They need to have a call with one more person on the 12th. If that works out, I can switch to a deliverable-based, at-home job. At this point, I'm hoping for that with all of my heart. If it doesn't happen, I don't know what I'm going to do.

I guess I should still be glad that I don't have to struggle to make bills anymore, but I'm just not feeling it right now.