Alcohol quest complete! (wait what)

I'm still stubbornly forcing my social side back into the sunlight. It wasn't even a resolution, I'm just sick of not being who I was when 2022 began, and I'm tired of waiting on that energy to come back on its own. Made myself go back to that bar again last week to hang out with friends and a few new people, and had a great time!

Also had Jägermeister for the first time, which is a big win for me.
( Okay that sounds ridiculous, let me elaborate. )

The problem is, I think my social anxiety is weirdly backwards.

The support group I went to a few weeks ago, I had an easy time getting along with everyone. Then I joined their discord, they said hi to me, I said hi back, then I basically shut down in a panic and haven't logged in since. Today, the first item on my to-do list was "catch up with comments and all the online stuff" and yet it took me most of the day to work up the nerve to actually reply to everyone. And I wouldn't have had to catch up at all, except any time there's more than one comment to reply to, I shut down and hide for days.

So apparently IRL is fine, and online I panic? I have no idea what's happening in this brain. I'll just have to keep forcing it, I suppose. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯